One of the things stopping me from continuing on learning to code is this blog post. A lot of things happen, beginning with an interruption, followed by another. Some are expected, some are not. I thought by this time, I would be busy working on the project, doing some improvements. I’m already there; I actually have the landing page for my start up project, but I fail to continue.
TLDR: I haven’t coded for two months and Now I’m back with no pressure, more drive and with a goal to be a developer.
Some things happened:
My grandmother died. It’s my first time to see how a burial and a wake (which is also called viewing) are done here in the United States. Blessed her soul and may she rest in peace.
I took the driving test for the nth time and finally passed it. I got my license! and I bought my first car yey! While I’m doing the startup engineering course, I’m also practicing for my driving test everyday after I get off from work. Actually, coding boost my self esteem, so I think it helped me when I’m doing the exam. I now drive everyday to work. cool!
I’m now working at a casino! (I feel like the character in the movie 21 haha) The branch where I used to work has closed. I thought I’d be out of work, so I applied for other jobs. It turned out they will transfer me to be in charge of another branch, but I was given a sweet offer from a casino and I accepted it.
However, I needed to drive at about 30 miles (one-way) everyday with the traffic in bay bridge! My time is consume with commute, work and sleeping. No time to code. huhu. I know, I know, If I really want it I should’ve done something about it. I’m actually unorganized, no directions, no specific goals.
I failed the startup engineering class. I did not finish my start up project. This project turned out to be a failure. I didn’t finish the project on time, and I wasn’t able to continue the assignments. However, I was able to have the resources I needed to study, on how to do it. I’ve had the taste of technology and start ups. I’ve got the inspiration I needed. The class is a good start, though there are a lot to improve. I would still use the resources and the philosophy to finish my project.
I’m coding again for real.
I’m off today at work; I took the chance to finally get back to coding yippee! Bwahaha. and now I’m back.
A few weeks ago, I stumble upon an article about reasons on why people stall out learning to program. I found out that there are a lot to work on and I should actually have a goal! I didn’t have a goal, I do, but its not clear. At first I just want to program because someday I wanted to build a web app, then I thought I wanted to join a bootcamp, but then I also want to do more on data and research, then I wanted to build a startup. Later I realized I wanted to code and this is what I want for a career. I didn’t took the startup engineering class to actually build a startup, but to learn.
If you’re like me who stopped from coding and would like to get back, here’s a nice article from the blog of Dilys Sun. (she is the codecademy girl, and I follow her blog since)
Recognizing the things that keeps me from moving forward:
I keep dwelling on my status relative to the rest of the world who are also learning how to code. I’ve been following students of bootcamps and I thought I needed to be on their track to be a programmer. I can’t afford a programming bootcamp, so I’m trying to teach myself and using their blogs on what I needed to learn to build something. I also follow some people who just learn to code by themselves. I’m amazed when some of them blog on something they built, its like as easy as it sounds, but when I do it myself, its taking me so long to figure things out. I sometimes feel depressed and think that this might not be for me, and since this is what everybody is learning and I’m not learning what they’re learning, I’m not on the right track.
I need to get myself a buddy or join the community for real. I can’t pair program, Im not satisfied with all of the meet ups I’ve attended so far. I suck at socializing and networking huhu. but I’m trying my best, I’m trying so hard to reach out. There’s this one meet up, a beginner’s workshop in django and there’s this girl who’s asking for help, I tried to help but I didn’t get a very friendly response. She was not mean, but she doesn’t like to answer my questions or share to me what’s wrong. Probably I didn’t have a good approach on trying to help, I know I should’ve tried again. I will try again and be better next time.
Stopping, Being too emotional and not getting back, Procrastinating.
I should always remind myself to not stop. It doesn’t matter how slow I go as long as I don’t stop. It’s the default tumblr quote on its themes and quite helpful haha.
Lack of a roadmap.
I didn’t have a goal when I started to learn how to program. I just find it fun, cool and challenging. I started with R by manipulating datasets since we’ve used R in college, so I tried to learn to use it the right way. I realized that I enjoy coding, so I’m coding on whim and learning through massive open online courses. I just later realized that I wanted to do projects, hack on some things, and I actually CAN do it. I didn’t have an end goal of what I wanted to accomplish, so whatever things are there that I find interesting I just jump on it and try to do it. However, I didn’t have ample time to do all this things as I work full time and have different obligations. In startup engineering, I learned more about startups, different market, technology, different stacks, how to begin, and how to fund it. I really enjoy the things I’ve learned, but I forgot that I wanted to focus more on programming than building my own company. I did want to build my own product however. I’m very inexperienced, I lack resources, and I’m half hearted on building a startup. I wanted to do it in the future, but not right now. I will still continue my startup project. I know It’s still a long way to build that project so I’m starting at the beginning. I’ll start small. I’d do some tutorials, just as long as I don’t stop. I will allot time for my coding everyday.
and there you go ladies and gentleman, I’m back on track. My schedule In the casino is not fixed; everyday it changes and it would be more difficult to learn this way, but I have my roadmap, I have the drive, and I won’t stop! game on.